I posted a few months back regarding rage, anger and hostility. January 26th, to be precise. I find it odd that I was also in a relationship with someone who seemed to plant a lot of these things unknowingly in me. Or maybe not plant so much as somehow was influential in the redevelopment of these feelings.
More signs point to staying away than keeping close to him. He's got a very intense need for attention and affirmation. His energies are all jumbled and chaotic. He's beautiful, but repulsive. Communication is severely lacking, as in, he will state that he is having major problems with something that could very well be solved, but doesnt want to solve it. Some things, time will not cure. These things ferment and destroy relationships.
This is a very difficult place for me, because I do love him, but I cant be sure to trust him again.
A mutual friend is right, he is like that little brother you want to guide in the right direction, but you know your efforts will be in vain.
When the time comes to us beginning communication, I will be unsure of what to say. I cant live in the past, delving out my hurt. Its not fair nor the place for it.
Heres to moving on.
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